Strange experience
Jan. 4th, 2007 10:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
arganoidLast night I had an unusual experience.
It was soon after I went to bed. I was lying in a slightly awkward position, and had been thinking mildly unhappy thoughts. I then had an unusual feeling which seemed familiar, although it wasn't something I had experienced in recent memory. It seemed reminiscent of dreams I had had when I was much younger (i.e. under 10).
Although it seemed a bit like a dream, I was conscious and was able to attempt analysing what I was experiencing. I tried to think about how it could be described to someone else. My first thought was that it felt as if one part of myself was here, and another part was an infinite distance away, although at the same time I could perceive it as a light which was within visual distance - as if it was at the far top corner of a giant room I was in. And I remembered having this feeling before, perhaps in dreams when I was younger, and I remember it feeling disturbing/wrong that these two parts of myself were separated by a huge distance, plus a feeling of hopelessness regarding the possibility of reuniting the two parts.
When I say 'myself', I don't mean by body had been cut in half and the parts moved away from each other. The only way I could describe it is by using the word 'soul', although I don't consider such a thing to exist in reality.
After experiencing this odd feeling for a while, I got out of bed and wrote it down to make sure I remembered what had happened.
The experience was also reminiscent of two other things. First, there was a recurring dream I had when I was young in which I was on a conveyor belt, and at the end of the conveyor belt (10 minutes away) was death. Not necessarily death by violent means, just the end of existence. Second, it reminded me of a few occasions - mainly when I was aged around 10-13, when I was lying in bed and would feel the sensation of vertical acceleration, as if I floating into the air, although I wasn't under any illusion that I genuinely was in the air.
Some people might see this as a spiritual or paranormal experience but I don't hold any truck with such things. The brain is perfectly capable of getting confused or playing tricks on people sometimes - especially when they're tired.
It was soon after I went to bed. I was lying in a slightly awkward position, and had been thinking mildly unhappy thoughts. I then had an unusual feeling which seemed familiar, although it wasn't something I had experienced in recent memory. It seemed reminiscent of dreams I had had when I was much younger (i.e. under 10).
Although it seemed a bit like a dream, I was conscious and was able to attempt analysing what I was experiencing. I tried to think about how it could be described to someone else. My first thought was that it felt as if one part of myself was here, and another part was an infinite distance away, although at the same time I could perceive it as a light which was within visual distance - as if it was at the far top corner of a giant room I was in. And I remembered having this feeling before, perhaps in dreams when I was younger, and I remember it feeling disturbing/wrong that these two parts of myself were separated by a huge distance, plus a feeling of hopelessness regarding the possibility of reuniting the two parts.
When I say 'myself', I don't mean by body had been cut in half and the parts moved away from each other. The only way I could describe it is by using the word 'soul', although I don't consider such a thing to exist in reality.
After experiencing this odd feeling for a while, I got out of bed and wrote it down to make sure I remembered what had happened.
The experience was also reminiscent of two other things. First, there was a recurring dream I had when I was young in which I was on a conveyor belt, and at the end of the conveyor belt (10 minutes away) was death. Not necessarily death by violent means, just the end of existence. Second, it reminded me of a few occasions - mainly when I was aged around 10-13, when I was lying in bed and would feel the sensation of vertical acceleration, as if I floating into the air, although I wasn't under any illusion that I genuinely was in the air.
Some people might see this as a spiritual or paranormal experience but I don't hold any truck with such things. The brain is perfectly capable of getting confused or playing tricks on people sometimes - especially when they're tired.
